Love is crazy. it’s crazy because you don’t know if it’s love or not till the time is right. Well let me share a little experience or actually allow me to rephrase that. Let me try to, put in words, the way I started to feel this; “Love” factor. 

So here it goes…

A year ago, actually no; a couple of years ago probably around end of 10th or beginning of 11th grade I met this girl on myspace her name was Liz, it’s weird because it’s myspace in the first place, and being myself I believed for a slight moment that I knew this girl from somewhere. At first I thought that she was from one of my old middle school classes; you know one of those girls who you just randomly bump into time to time, yet I was wrong. Then after awhile I thought i knew her from sports, since I’ve played and traveled a lot I met a lot of people in the long run as well. Again I was wrong. Not knowing who this girl was I man-up’d and commented on her page. Yeah, this sounds like one of those corny ass movies and shit, but your wrong…

So let’s skip a couple of months so I don’t write too much lol 

So in summary we exchanged numbers and for the next 2 years we talked on a daily and when I mean daily I mean, 24-7. Day, Night, Afternoon, during class, after class and everything in between. She had a boyfriend at the time and I was well single; trying to find a girl I could just be me with. We started to become what people say “bestfirends” Yeah I”m not gonna lie having that best friend who is always there for you that isn’t a guy feels pretty damn good. I mean, she was always there for me when I was down or when I was super happy. But, unforgettably not everything is perfect you know? Her boyfriend found out and wanted to fight me. Not going to lie I was going to fucking beat the shit outta him till he feels guilty himself that he ever called me out. See at the time she didn’t know that I have a anger problem. So keep that in mind. The funny thing is no matter how much we talked, opened up, knew eachother  and knew pretty much almost every detail about one another we NEVER MET in person. it’s funny everytime someone asked if we hang out i usually say “naw she’s always busy”.

1 year later. 

So it’s the end of our senior year and YES finally! we finally fucking met, I gave her this bear that I bought for her 17th birthday and saved. Damn was meting her not weird at all we talked although she was shy we talked a little. It was her graduation party at her house is where we met and things didn’t really go the way i planned haha, but that’s aside of the point.  

Near present day 

So skipped a lot of stuff I wanna get into how i fell in love with my beautiful girlfriend. 

Augest 31 2010  the day it started. So on this day the end of the month lol i asked Liz out it was cool werid, and in my car/ in a park where we always go to now. From then till now we fight almost everyday. She found out about my anger issues and how much hate i carry with me all the time. Letting it go when I’m mad is so bad. She crys all the time because of me, depressed and almost never happy. I’m sorry that i’m like that, and i’m sorry your not happy like it used to be when we were first going out. Almost everyday you make me fall for you from the way you just come to my house to wake me up to go to school, to me getting you on some days and your all dressed up. Your beautiful, wonderful, smart, funny, crazy, smelly, cute, and short. Everything I want in a girl is in you. You’ve made me cry for the first time in 9 years and you’ve dealt with me from the very start. Now I don’t want to see myself with anyone but you, because honestly I love you so much. To a point where I already feel like married. It’s weird to say that because if you ask my sister I was never the type to even say i love you to anyone. You’ve changed me and slowly I”m changing getting less mad, and started to realize what’s important in life.  

So this is my side of love. The way I started to feel it is different started off by just texting all the time to a random girl, to talking everyday, to not meeting eachother, to finally meeting eachother, to forever being together.

someone told me that love doesn’t happen so fast and he was right.

So Elizabeth Ann Abao I love you.